Friday, June 12, 2009

Is time to awake from my dream...

getting confuse in my mind....Is that actually a dream or real life for me?? As his appearance, i'm happy to be with...but yet i do feel we are not belonging to each others...can said that his heart and his sole is belongs to somebody else....
Maybe i'm the one so hope that the relationship will appear as what i thought...but it seems not. Well, maybe he is right....i'm not as good as he thought...i'm not as perfect as she did....she is everything to you but i'm not.
No matter how perfect the things appear....but its still not belong to me at the end...maybe i'm too easy to others get near me....

I think i really need to awake from now....thanks for everyday...thanks for being accompany with...Hope you will be happy ever after with the person you belongs to...A&A

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Is Time to LET GO.....forever and ever....

I'll never knew that you did such thing to me....Why you want to let me know the truth??!! Is it you feel regret on the thing that u had done......But i should say thanks to you because you let me know the truth after 3 years......And now i had made up my mind to let go you forever and ever....i wont give myself any other reason to remember you......

Is time to say goodbye.....

I will let go you forever and ever....

Saturday, March 21, 2009

T!m3 !s L!k3 @ R!v3r.....3@sy Com3 3@sy g()

I have been few months didn't jot down any words in this blog.....How do you do....my dear....? March 15th had past over....I miss you....Hope that you will new life in the heaven as mi still living as a human......This 3 years seems like a challenging life for me after you had leave.....Maybe the promise that i had made with you is already come true.....I'll never get another partner in my life.....
Maybe is my fault...making that promise between you and me....but now i didn't make it.....Therefore i will never get a partner in these 3 years......Are you angry with me that leaving you...not bothering you....??? I'm so sorry about that.....SORRY
As he is treated me very well and cares me....I did share with him with tears...happiness...stressing...mad...and even more......But i know that our relationship will never change as now we are still frenz.....No matter how....i hope that he will be success in getting a new partner in his life....but the days that we passing by together will never be forgotten in my heart....Thanks....

Thursday, February 12, 2009

N!C3 T() M33T Y()U

We are now entered to year 2009...everything that happened from the pass should be forgotten....As what people use to say, starting a new hope is mean starting anew life.....but is it really happen as usual?? I don't think so......every time i feel that things will be easy going, we should not too care about.....But it seems like it take more struggle, stress,, even become more worst than that.....
Since Chinese New Year had just pass through from us....as we can say that "the happiness already over, we are now slowly stepping into the trouble to fight for our life in the future".....Human are being build to fight, solve, meet, hurt,love, hate, admire.....on each other. In different cases, we will have different way have our days......
As i meet you from the first time.....it might be a mistake which happen to me.....Maybe it does not really means to you but it really give me a new hope on that day.....Yet, this "feeling" from what i got from the begin already change to "fear"....."hopeless"....."disappointed"..... Maybe is all about my fault, for being too childish on this, that was a big gab between us.....and yet i still believe it won't be a problem for us.....And now, i found it i am having a very silly thinking about.....It really the main problem for being together, i am too childish....
I swear......from this lesson, i want to be more stronger and mature on my thinking to settle every problems that i meet in my future life.....Let it go....Evelyn.......let it go before it hurts you deeply....