Is time to awake from my dream...

getting confuse in my mind....Is that actually a dream or real life for me?? As his appearance, i'm happy to be with...but yet i do feel we are not belonging to each others...can said that his heart and his sole is belongs to somebody else....
Maybe i'm the one so hope that the relationship will appear as what i thought...but it seems not. Well, maybe he is right....i'm not as good as he thought...i'm not as perfect as she did....she is everything to you but i'm not.
No matter how perfect the things appear....but its still not belong to me at the end...maybe i'm too easy to others get near me....

I think i really need to awake from now....thanks for everyday...thanks for being accompany with...Hope you will be happy ever after with the person you belongs to...A&A

Is Time to LET GO.....forever and ever....

I'll never knew that you did such thing to me....Why you want to let me know the truth??!! Is it you feel regret on the thing that u had done......But i should say thanks to you because you let me know the truth after 3 years......And now i had made up my mind to let go you forever and ever....i wont give myself any other reason to remember you......

Is time to say goodbye.....

I will let go you forever and ever....

T!m3 !s L!k3 @ R!v3r.....3@sy Com3 3@sy g()

I have been few months didn't jot down any words in this blog.....How do you do....my dear....? March 15th had past over....I miss you....Hope that you will new life in the heaven as mi still living as a human......This 3 years seems like a challenging life for me after you had leave.....Maybe the promise that i had made with you is already come true.....I'll never get another partner in my life.....
Maybe is my fault...making that promise between you and me....but now i didn't make it.....Therefore i will never get a partner in these 3 years......Are you angry with me that leaving you...not bothering you....??? I'm so sorry about that.....SORRY
As he is treated me very well and cares me....I did share with him with tears...happiness...stressing...mad...and even more......But i know that our relationship will never change as now we are still frenz.....No matter how....i hope that he will be success in getting a new partner in his life....but the days that we passing by together will never be forgotten in my heart....Thanks....

N!C3 T() M33T Y()U

We are now entered to year 2009...everything that happened from the pass should be forgotten....As what people use to say, starting a new hope is mean starting anew life.....but is it really happen as usual?? I don't think so......every time i feel that things will be easy going, we should not too care about.....But it seems like it take more struggle, stress,, even become more worst than that.....
Since Chinese New Year had just pass through from us....as we can say that "the happiness already over, we are now slowly stepping into the trouble to fight for our life in the future".....Human are being build to fight, solve, meet, hurt,love, hate, admire.....on each other. In different cases, we will have different way have our days......
As i meet you from the first time.....it might be a mistake which happen to me.....Maybe it does not really means to you but it really give me a new hope on that day.....Yet, this "feeling" from what i got from the begin already change to "fear"....."hopeless"....."disappointed"..... Maybe is all about my fault, for being too childish on this, that was a big gab between us.....and yet i still believe it won't be a problem for us.....And now, i found it i am having a very silly thinking about.....It really the main problem for being together, i am too childish....
I swear......from this lesson, i want to be more stronger and mature on my thinking to settle every problems that i meet in my future life.....Let it go....Evelyn.......let it go before it hurts you deeply....

D!S@PP()!NT @B()UT.......

I had feel too sick to stay longer in Stamford....i get to know that my required to leave Stamford and get back my refund is being rejected!!!!!!! Damn it!!!!



I hate about their systems......rules & regulars....even the place located....Staff....Everything i hate!!!!!!!!! Today i almost get into an accident while i was thinking about why are they rejected my required?? I am moodless and go to Pathways....but no one reliase that something had happen on me......I need to talk with someone.....But who is it?? I Don't know........



I almost lost myself on suffering these days......What should i do now? I lost my self again.....I can't tell my parent that today i almost in an accidents......They will worry and i don't want it to happen on them.......



If (K) is still around......i will feel better.....at least i got someone i can fully talk with.....Today i just pass my office key to Shirley.....Seems like i still can't fully leave it.....actually today i wanna to have lunch with them and cheer up myself but they had it before i ask them......And yet just now while we are chatting.....sudden they asking am i come back for work? I don't know what to say it......and i keep telling jokes with them..... And sudden telling about the keys.....so no choice.... I have to give out my keys to Pathways and they even didn't say anything to me....just keep. Well, maybe i really don't have give out myself to Pathways....means my leaving maybe i right.....

Forgotten Season

Seems like i had been some times i didn't log in and write my blog. It was quite busy for the past months......busy on assignment...busy on study...busy on this and that....busy on final test.....Oh God!!! Seems like i'm busy on many things.......
The days is passing so fast, now is November 2008. How do i live in this 11 months?
So many things happened this year........And now i'm going to end up my job in Pathways by this month.....seems like i can't leave it. But study schedule is totally full......this semester is getting harder & harder.......
For the latest news i get from frenz that......many of them are going to leave Stamford College. What should i do? Shall i leave together with them? This problem really make me feel sick.....@_@

But i am the one who had make my final decision to have further study in Stamford College, but the system and the staffs there is making all of us disappointed.......How should i do now?
That's only the system is really down but others is still fine.....should i leave just because of their system and start a new life, new environment, new study......is that worth? I really don't know?

But why are there so many students can stand it until they went for degree? Why couldn't me? I really need to think wisely and i don't want my parent worry about it....... But my frenz are going to leave soon.....i really appreciate to meet them....
I hate the stupid fatty lady, she not giving any chances to hear what we are not happy with.....Why are they so stupid? Why don't they do something to us? Can't they feel something serious is going to happen among us?

I hope our feedback can change them into a better way........
Wake up you STUPID FATTY LADY!!!!!!!! Don't give us excuses anymore!!!!!